February 13 2017.
It was a major crisis.
I can honestly say that I have never been in such a situation before in my life.
When I was stuck in the situation, my mind was literally flying off to so many directions. I was thinking all about the consequences and how I managed to get off to this point. The matter was so complicated to the point that I actually had negative thoughts channeling through my mind. I knew that this would (at some point) be settled and that I would write all about it here. So here I am talking about this matter.
I’m not going to go to the specifics of what actually happened during this critical period but all I can say is that it was a combination of 5 different problems that I found out all at the same time. 5 problems might not sound so complicated but the key thing is that everything came at the same time and that’s where I totally lost it.
How I went through this?
Well, here’s the rundown of what I did:
- Panic about the situation, having lots of panic
- Eat things out of thinking because food numbs the effect of the situation
- Try looking for possible solutions
- Comprehensively looking for the various options that I have
- Clearing out thoughts of giving up and hoping for the worst
- Frantically thinking through each problem
- Staying calm and focus on solving a single problem
- Everything resolved
Typing out what I did doesn’t make my problem that complex but I can tell you that it felt more complex in my mind during the time. Which leads me to the thing that I want to write out, I was not calm enough. In the past, I have always managed to keep calm even during the most hardest times but I guess the combination of stress and problems really clicked off my mind.
The most important lesson that I have learnt during this crisis is that I did not resort to being calm. I thought I was but I wasn’t. And reflecting back to the entire crisis, the biggest reason why I had this crisis in the first place is because of one problem that I felt unconfident of solving and that cause me to rethink the validity of solving other problems.
The good thing is that I managed to solve the problem, now I can add this experience to my bag of experiences so that I can look back next time and say “If I managed to survive that moment, why can’t I survive this one”. I think looking back at past experiences is one of the most powerful things in solving a problem and re-assuring my mind about the matter that I am currently facing.
This crisis situation also re-activated one of my past priorities to be more organized and having better time management. The source of all these problems came from my poor time management skills and also the lack of proper organization for my resources.