Crisis on Monday

February 13 2017.

It was a major crisis.

I can honestly say that I have never been in such a situation before in my life.

When I was stuck in the situation, my mind was literally flying off to so many directions. I was thinking all about the consequences and how I managed to get off to this point. The matter was so complicated to the point that I actually had negative thoughts channeling through my mind. I knew that this would (at some point) be settled and that I would write all about it here. So here I am talking about this matter.

I’m not going to go to the specifics of what actually happened during this critical period but all I can say is that it was a combination of 5 different problems that I found out all at the same time. 5 problems might not sound so complicated but the key thing is that everything came at the same time and that’s where I totally lost it.

How I went through this?

Well, here’s the rundown of what I did:

  1. Panic about the situation, having lots of panic
  2. Eat things out of thinking because food numbs the effect of the situation
  3. Try looking for possible solutions
    • Comprehensively looking for the various options that I have
    • Clearing out thoughts of giving up and hoping for the worst
    • Frantically thinking through each problem
  4. Staying calm and focus on solving a single problem
  5. Everything resolved

Typing out what I did doesn’t make my problem that complex but I can tell you that it felt more complex in my mind during the time. Which leads me to the thing that I want to write out, I was not calm enough. In the past, I have always managed to keep calm even during the most hardest times but I guess the combination of stress and problems really clicked off my mind.

The most important lesson that I have learnt during this crisis is that I did not resort to being calm. I thought I was but I wasn’t. And reflecting back to the entire crisis, the biggest reason why I had this crisis in the first place is because of one problem that I felt unconfident of solving and that cause me to rethink the validity of solving other problems.

The good thing is that I managed to solve the problem, now I can add this experience to my bag of experiences so that I can look back next time and say “If I managed to survive that moment, why can’t I survive this one”. I think looking back at past experiences is one of the most powerful things in solving a problem and re-assuring my mind about the matter that I am currently facing.

This crisis situation also re-activated one of my past priorities to be more organized and having better time management. The source of all these problems came from my poor time management skills and also the lack of proper organization for my resources.

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Five Years

Five years ago, I made a bold decision that inadvertently changed the course of my life

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I decided to start a tech blog.

I called it The Technology of Today.

I loved it with all my heart and poured all my time at it.

When I first started, I honestly didn’t know what I was doing. All I wanted to do was just to share what my opinion and views that I had. It was purely just to kill time and not for any fame or money. Five years down the road, a lot of things have come and go. Went from going to high school to University in America. The growth of the site in the first two years has been just beyond my expectation but things started going downhill in the third year and subsequent years as I began losing interest in it.

In the last year that I have been in the US, I did consider countless times of putting an end to this tech blogging thing but I just couldn’t. I worked very hard through countless sleepless nights doing coverage of live events to get to the place I am in right now. I honestly didn’t want my effort to go to waste.

So, I continued to stay true to blogging. I have always had grand ideas on expanding the site beyond what is there today. But the biggest problem really is prioritizing blogging with other things in my life. Blogging has never been my number 1 priority. That’s the problem. I just don’t have the time to work on my ambitious.

This somehow conflicts with one of my favorite quote which is:

“You may be busy pursuing your dream, but don’t become too busy to pursue your dream!”

Fact is, I have become too busy to pursue my dream of expanding the blog.

Five years is a long time. That’s more than 1,600 days in total. I spent a considerable amount of time in those days thinking about this site and I am not giving up on it. The last two years, I have worked hard on creating my own writing style and I am confident that it will be able to stand out. In the forthcoming year, I will be working on improving the background foundation of the actual site.

Hopefully I will be able to see a 10th year anniversary.